WHY?????
As I pass through the lanes of OUCW, all that comes to my mind is the independence, carefree attitude, and tensionless life, now everything in the reverse gear. As I think about what I have achieved through these years I find progress at the cost of my own life. I had lived my life during graduation but now even life has become a duty. Huh is this what it means to achieve…….????
There was a day when anything spoken was not taken in the wrong sense and now I see people waiting for me to speak to take wrong meanings out of it. A simple joke would be a means of laughter and now it doesn’t even bring a smile on my face. Why is it that I crave for a happy smile? Why is it that I put up an artificial smile for people when I have never done that before??? Why is it that my face tries to hide my feelings??? Why? Why? Why?
So many unanswered questions yet the answer still remain why?
If the answer to it is I have matured in my behavior through these years then I don’t want this maturity which is changing my nature, my identity….. People in my life have not changed but the way we look at life has changed. Back in those days all of us looked at life in the same way more of fun and less of tensions but now its going different paths which don't seem to converge at any point neither in our thoughts nor in our actions. We regretted parting from each other after graduation but may be in the real sense we have moved away from each other now :(((((
And if I think what I have achieved through these years then I feel why did I? Leaving behind my own self and taking ahead a fake personality in my form? Yet it’s a why in my life? Hope it doesn’t lead me to why am I living this life, when I am not the one I am meant to be………………..
SNEHA NAIK
As I pass through the lanes of OUCW, all that comes to my mind is the independence, carefree attitude, and tensionless life, now everything in the reverse gear. As I think about what I have achieved through these years I find progress at the cost of my own life. I had lived my life during graduation but now even life has become a duty. Huh is this what it means to achieve…….????
There was a day when anything spoken was not taken in the wrong sense and now I see people waiting for me to speak to take wrong meanings out of it. A simple joke would be a means of laughter and now it doesn’t even bring a smile on my face. Why is it that I crave for a happy smile? Why is it that I put up an artificial smile for people when I have never done that before??? Why is it that my face tries to hide my feelings??? Why? Why? Why?
So many unanswered questions yet the answer still remain why?
If the answer to it is I have matured in my behavior through these years then I don’t want this maturity which is changing my nature, my identity….. People in my life have not changed but the way we look at life has changed. Back in those days all of us looked at life in the same way more of fun and less of tensions but now its going different paths which don't seem to converge at any point neither in our thoughts nor in our actions. We regretted parting from each other after graduation but may be in the real sense we have moved away from each other now :(((((
And if I think what I have achieved through these years then I feel why did I? Leaving behind my own self and taking ahead a fake personality in my form? Yet it’s a why in my life? Hope it doesn’t lead me to why am I living this life, when I am not the one I am meant to be………………..
SNEHA NAIK