DESTINY.....
I have been wondering whole of my life what is destiny...don’t I plan my destiny? Whenever we face a failure or our thoughts do not become reality for us, people try to calm us down saying “May be this is your Destiny" how true is this? Many of the sleepless nights I have had trying to find answers for my varied innumerable questions this was one of them. Why do we try to escape every time when we have to face a failure? Why doesn’t He give us the courage to face the failure? Why don’t we stand up for our actions? Why is our destiny given the disgrace for bringing a failure in our life? Trying to find solutions for many such questions but I don’t drive to any conclusion.
Destiny, fate are they just for our satisfaction or true facts? Did He write so many stories a different story for every living being? What is destiny- my future? What is my fate- the story of my life? Do the lines of our hands really speak about our future, our destiny?
I started blaming rather satisfying myself thinking this is what destiny is during my intermediate days. I did work hard to fulfill my mother’s dream of seeing me as a doctor. But I guess I fell short of the interest as I never dreamt being a doctor. I took interest in biology during my tenth and hence landed up taking BiPC. Till then I haven’t even chalked out a career for myself but, blamed my destiny for not making me a doctor. Never thought whether I was interested in it or not. Next landed up in OUCW, never had dreamt in my wildest dreams that I would land up in that jungle one day. But that place turned out to be heaven for me. I had the greatest moments of life there but, never ever thought of thanking my destiny for that beautiful life. Then came the next phase of life for my MSc. Was unable to convince my parents for letting me attend an interview for integrated PhD. They convinced me saying that was not my destiny and hence you couldn’t go but the fact that I had failed in my attempts to convince them. Then why blame my destiny? It did give me an opportunity which I couldn’t utilize and started blaming my destiny.
I have learnt to stand up for my mistakes. I no more want to blame my destiny for the situation I am in. I am responsible for all my deeds and I am ready to accept it. Now I am a happier person sensing that it was my fault but, found and easier way of blaming my destiny. Thanks to my friend (aki) for this realization. The regular chats we have had and the depressed soul I was all these days, I am no more of that kind atleast trying to be. Thanks to all my friends who had to bear with my depressing stuff (special thanks to aki and trish)
-SNEHA NAIK
Thursday, January 7, 2010
When the days seem dull, the nights go sleepless, the future uncertain, the situation not in our control and when everything we plan for life goes wrong we are stranded with one and only one question “WHAT NEXT?” I am sure many of us have faced this question and will continue to face this question till our death. The same question but the situation different each time. Do we have any answer for it? Will we ever have any answer for it?
Is this what keeps the life going? When 1 step of life is achieved and even before the success is thoroughly enjoyed the same question raises again “what next???” Is it the reason for our survival, the reason for the increasing demands and the reason for dissatisfaction in career in my case??? Even before I finish one work the mind starts working on the next thing to be done.
May be the desire to do a lot of things in this short span of life gave birth to this question amongst us. May be the desire to be in the top league in this rat race gave birth to it.
Is there any end to this question in our lives? Is death the only answer???.....................
-SNEHA NAIK
Thursday, December 31, 2009
जाने कहाँ गए वोह दिन............
ज़िन्दगी भी पता नहीं कैसे मोड़ लेती है, पता ही नहीं चला कब बड़े हो गए और कब वक़्त गुजर गया/ वो वक़्त भी क्या था जब चंदामामा की चांदनी में माँ की हांथों से निवाला खाते थे और अब एक वक़्त ऐसा है जब खाना खाने तक ही फुरसत नहीं मिलती/ अपने बचपन के चंदामामा से मिलना तो जैसे सपना हो गया हो/ पता ही नहीं चला कब ज़िन्दगी के इस भागम भाग में इतना खो गए की अपने ही ज़िन्दगी के छोटी छोटी खुशिया हमसे दूर होने लगे/ सूरज का डूबना और चाँद का उभारना तोह पता ही नहीं चलता और दिन कब रात में बदल गयी यह भी तोह नहीं दीखता/ न सूरज का उभारना जानते है न दिन का ढलना/ ज़िन्दगी के इस हेरा फेरी में कुछ ऐसे खो गए है की ज़िन्दगी के उन हसींन लम्हों को जीना तोह चाहते है पर वक्त नहीं रहता/ ऐसी ज़िन्दगी ही क्या जो हम अपने लिए अपने दिल को खुश करने के लिए वक्त ही न निकाल पाए? एक पूर्णिमा की रात जब घर से बाहर कुछ काम से जाना पडा तब चाँद की चांदनी ने मन को कुछ ऐसे मोह लिया की नज़र हटाये न हट सकी/ उस रात एक अजीब सी खुशी का एहसास किया/ वोह ख़ुशी जो बचपन के हर रात को सुहाना कर देती थी आज बड़े अर्जे के बाद महसूस कर रही थी/ शायद यही ज़िन्दगी का नियम है खुशी तोह देती है पर लम्बे अर्जे के लिए नहीं/ हर पल यह एहसास तोह कराती है की हमारे इस ज़िन्दगी में खुशियाँ तोह है पर उनका आनंद उठाने का वक्त नहीं/ एक पल ज़िन्दगी में ऐसा था जब चाँद की चांदनी और तारों की सुन्दरता सारे दुःख हर लेती थी और सुकून की नींद सुलाती थी और अब एक वक्त ऐसा है जहाँ हर रात बिना नींद के गुज़र जाती है पर अपने उन रात के साथी दुःख हरता की याद ही नहीं आती/ ज़िन्दगी के इस भागम भाग ने हम से सब कुछ चीन लिया हमारे साथी, छोटी छोटी खुशिया पर फिर भी हम कुछ नहीं कर पाते/ क्या यही ज़िन्दगी है? शायद हाँ या शायद ना पर वक्त तोह जुज़र्ता रहता है और ज़िन्दगी भी तेजी से आगे बढती रहती है यह ना सोचते की हम उस रफ़्तार से आगे बढ़ भी रहे है या नहीं? काश वोह बचपन हमे कुछ पल के लिए लौटा दिया जाए ताकि हम इस पल के सारे दुःख उस चंद लम्हों में भूल जाए और फिर इस ज़िन्दगी के हेरा फेरी में लौट आये............काश ऐसा हो पाता/काश.....................
-स्नेहा
ज़िन्दगी भी पता नहीं कैसे मोड़ लेती है, पता ही नहीं चला कब बड़े हो गए और कब वक़्त गुजर गया/ वो वक़्त भी क्या था जब चंदामामा की चांदनी में माँ की हांथों से निवाला खाते थे और अब एक वक़्त ऐसा है जब खाना खाने तक ही फुरसत नहीं मिलती/ अपने बचपन के चंदामामा से मिलना तो जैसे सपना हो गया हो/ पता ही नहीं चला कब ज़िन्दगी के इस भागम भाग में इतना खो गए की अपने ही ज़िन्दगी के छोटी छोटी खुशिया हमसे दूर होने लगे/ सूरज का डूबना और चाँद का उभारना तोह पता ही नहीं चलता और दिन कब रात में बदल गयी यह भी तोह नहीं दीखता/ न सूरज का उभारना जानते है न दिन का ढलना/ ज़िन्दगी के इस हेरा फेरी में कुछ ऐसे खो गए है की ज़िन्दगी के उन हसींन लम्हों को जीना तोह चाहते है पर वक्त नहीं रहता/ ऐसी ज़िन्दगी ही क्या जो हम अपने लिए अपने दिल को खुश करने के लिए वक्त ही न निकाल पाए? एक पूर्णिमा की रात जब घर से बाहर कुछ काम से जाना पडा तब चाँद की चांदनी ने मन को कुछ ऐसे मोह लिया की नज़र हटाये न हट सकी/ उस रात एक अजीब सी खुशी का एहसास किया/ वोह ख़ुशी जो बचपन के हर रात को सुहाना कर देती थी आज बड़े अर्जे के बाद महसूस कर रही थी/ शायद यही ज़िन्दगी का नियम है खुशी तोह देती है पर लम्बे अर्जे के लिए नहीं/ हर पल यह एहसास तोह कराती है की हमारे इस ज़िन्दगी में खुशियाँ तोह है पर उनका आनंद उठाने का वक्त नहीं/ एक पल ज़िन्दगी में ऐसा था जब चाँद की चांदनी और तारों की सुन्दरता सारे दुःख हर लेती थी और सुकून की नींद सुलाती थी और अब एक वक्त ऐसा है जहाँ हर रात बिना नींद के गुज़र जाती है पर अपने उन रात के साथी दुःख हरता की याद ही नहीं आती/ ज़िन्दगी के इस भागम भाग ने हम से सब कुछ चीन लिया हमारे साथी, छोटी छोटी खुशिया पर फिर भी हम कुछ नहीं कर पाते/ क्या यही ज़िन्दगी है? शायद हाँ या शायद ना पर वक्त तोह जुज़र्ता रहता है और ज़िन्दगी भी तेजी से आगे बढती रहती है यह ना सोचते की हम उस रफ़्तार से आगे बढ़ भी रहे है या नहीं? काश वोह बचपन हमे कुछ पल के लिए लौटा दिया जाए ताकि हम इस पल के सारे दुःख उस चंद लम्हों में भूल जाए और फिर इस ज़िन्दगी के हेरा फेरी में लौट आये............काश ऐसा हो पाता/काश.....................
-स्नेहा
Sunday, October 4, 2009
LIFE…………
My solitude always questions me about the life I live. The highest form of the animal kingdom possessing the brains but still my solitude never left wondering “is this life really mine……!” The creator The super power plays the game and we the puppets in his hand play according to his moves. “Is this really the life I had wanted for myself?” not very sure if this was what I wanted the constant failures, the regular sidetracks I had to follow was not what I wished for my life. He is the one who decides I guess as even after our struggle we land up doing something else we like it or not thinking He has decided a better thing for us..
Do I take the decisions of my life??? Not really. Then why did He make us the superior with the brains, giving the ability to think and analyze the situation. He decides even the people in our life. Relative come to us by default but friends-do I choose??? People come play their roles in our lives and go and we keep waiting for them. He gave us this life to live but I guess He wants to enjoy a short play of my life for certain duration and then bring to an end…. Am I on this land only to play according to Him??? Am I the only troubled or the extreme thinker or many feeling so? My questions unanswered every time but still my solitude poses a new question each time. Why is it that we come onto this land, live and go? Do we atleast have a moment where we decide something for our life? Atleast one decision of our life is really ours. As elders say its all written we just have to play our part??? Is this true??
Does He enjoy the differences among people? How does He remember the different natures of so many people on the earth? If He has created the land then why is He destroying like this with natural calamities? Does He love all his people equally? Then why are a few troubled with no food to eat and water to drink and a few enjoying all the luxuries of life? Is this what He wants his own creation to face?
My solitude still questions me “is this your life that you are living or just playing your role in the play????”
-SNEHA NAIK
My solitude always questions me about the life I live. The highest form of the animal kingdom possessing the brains but still my solitude never left wondering “is this life really mine……!” The creator The super power plays the game and we the puppets in his hand play according to his moves. “Is this really the life I had wanted for myself?” not very sure if this was what I wanted the constant failures, the regular sidetracks I had to follow was not what I wished for my life. He is the one who decides I guess as even after our struggle we land up doing something else we like it or not thinking He has decided a better thing for us..
Do I take the decisions of my life??? Not really. Then why did He make us the superior with the brains, giving the ability to think and analyze the situation. He decides even the people in our life. Relative come to us by default but friends-do I choose??? People come play their roles in our lives and go and we keep waiting for them. He gave us this life to live but I guess He wants to enjoy a short play of my life for certain duration and then bring to an end…. Am I on this land only to play according to Him??? Am I the only troubled or the extreme thinker or many feeling so? My questions unanswered every time but still my solitude poses a new question each time. Why is it that we come onto this land, live and go? Do we atleast have a moment where we decide something for our life? Atleast one decision of our life is really ours. As elders say its all written we just have to play our part??? Is this true??
Does He enjoy the differences among people? How does He remember the different natures of so many people on the earth? If He has created the land then why is He destroying like this with natural calamities? Does He love all his people equally? Then why are a few troubled with no food to eat and water to drink and a few enjoying all the luxuries of life? Is this what He wants his own creation to face?
My solitude still questions me “is this your life that you are living or just playing your role in the play????”
-SNEHA NAIK
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
THE PERENNIAL WATER’S…………………
Any river or for that matter any water body that flows without getting dries for ever is called the perennial water source. Tears- being the perennial water source of our lives. Tears share a very special relation with us. The best companion for lives as like other human companions never demand any attention but share all our sorrows, grief’s, happiness, anger and all forms of emotions.
Tears- a silent source of entertainment, the eternal pacifiers of life. They express our feelings more clearly than our words as words can be hidden but one can never hide their tears the more one tries to hide them the more clearly they are visible to everyone. Tears are the feelings, which the words cannot express. The tears flow as the string of pearls and along with flow all our sorrows, helping us to move out of the helpless situations and provide the strength and encouragement to face the ground reality of life. The tears as they flow teach us the lesson that life s not just to sit and cry but also to face the life as it comes. Even when we are happy, they flow off even without our notice. No matter we remember them in our happiness they still relieve us of all the pain.
They possess the magical power to relieve the heart from the sorrow, grief, pain and all other emotions, which no one else can do in our life. They share all our feelings and pacify us by there silent words saying, “no matter what we are there for us to support you in all your Endeavour’s when the whole world might be against you.” Tears mark the sign of birth and death. It’s the crying of the newly born that marks the entry of life in this world and the sorrow of the others in the form of tears that marks the end of one life in the same world. Some people try hard to hide them and do not let them flow. Just let your tears the string of pearls to flow and see the magic they create. They flow off and leave a sense of satisfaction, sense of being, and sense of happiness in life. Did the creator create them only so that they can help his creation the human beings in all situations when no one is there for them rather when they are unable to share their emotions with anyone? Thanks to Him for giving the beautiful companion for our lives with whom one their share their feelings yet they do not demand a share in our happiness and don’t bother if we do not involve the in our happiness…
-SNEHA NAIK
Any river or for that matter any water body that flows without getting dries for ever is called the perennial water source. Tears- being the perennial water source of our lives. Tears share a very special relation with us. The best companion for lives as like other human companions never demand any attention but share all our sorrows, grief’s, happiness, anger and all forms of emotions.
Tears- a silent source of entertainment, the eternal pacifiers of life. They express our feelings more clearly than our words as words can be hidden but one can never hide their tears the more one tries to hide them the more clearly they are visible to everyone. Tears are the feelings, which the words cannot express. The tears flow as the string of pearls and along with flow all our sorrows, helping us to move out of the helpless situations and provide the strength and encouragement to face the ground reality of life. The tears as they flow teach us the lesson that life s not just to sit and cry but also to face the life as it comes. Even when we are happy, they flow off even without our notice. No matter we remember them in our happiness they still relieve us of all the pain.
They possess the magical power to relieve the heart from the sorrow, grief, pain and all other emotions, which no one else can do in our life. They share all our feelings and pacify us by there silent words saying, “no matter what we are there for us to support you in all your Endeavour’s when the whole world might be against you.” Tears mark the sign of birth and death. It’s the crying of the newly born that marks the entry of life in this world and the sorrow of the others in the form of tears that marks the end of one life in the same world. Some people try hard to hide them and do not let them flow. Just let your tears the string of pearls to flow and see the magic they create. They flow off and leave a sense of satisfaction, sense of being, and sense of happiness in life. Did the creator create them only so that they can help his creation the human beings in all situations when no one is there for them rather when they are unable to share their emotions with anyone? Thanks to Him for giving the beautiful companion for our lives with whom one their share their feelings yet they do not demand a share in our happiness and don’t bother if we do not involve the in our happiness…
-SNEHA NAIK
Thursday, June 11, 2009
STRANGE…….BUT TRUE
A strange incident happened in my life the one unforgettable incident. It was during my graduation. The common hangout for us was the gokul chat bhandar near our college Osmania University College
This incident occurred almost a year ago. The chat bhandar now runs happily might have earned all the profits it had lost during those days but what about the families who lost the bread winner-the one who nourished the family?
Many incidents as the one I had experienced were written in the news paper. Some who had been to lumbini park escaped the blast there only to loose their lives in the gokul chat bhandar……..the most sad but true experience. I thank god for he saved mine and my friend’s lives. This statement is my selfish side may be I am happy that nothing has happened to the people I know, but feels very bad when the thought of others comes up. What if I had been there? Why did god have to kill so many innocents????
--SNEHA NAIK
Sunday, March 29, 2009
THE SMILE…………….
One fine night went to sleep at the usual time but could not sleep as it was raining outside and the child in me wanted to play in the rain but could not go out as it was too dark to step out. The empty roads, the drizzle visible because of the light rays of the street light, the gentle breeze and the wet leaves dancing to the tunes of the breeze made a spectacular joyous moment. It filled my heart with happiness. I sat at the window enjoying the scenario, didn’t feel like sleeping as I would miss the beautiful moments with the nature if I slept. Wanted the moment to stay for ever, didn’t want the sun to rise, wanted the dawn to wait till I could enjoy those moments unto satisfaction but as the nature brings this beauty to me even reminds me that the day has to rise and work to begin. Suddenly I felt as if I was sitting on a sea shore, the same drizzle, and the silent tides that brought the sea waters along with them cleansed my feet and returned back to the sea. The feeling of a soft touch by the water brought a smile on my face. Never felt a need for a second person between me and the nature. Nature always has something new to present and that feeling brings joy and happiness. I was sitting there alone at the shore enjoying the beauty. Then I saw a person walking towards me wearing a sweet smile. He spoke to me so gently that the words fell on my ear as music. I sat there listening him speak as his voice was as soothing as that of a koel. We walked along the shore, that person knew so much about me but I knew nothing about that person. I didn’t even bother to know about that person, was walking along with that person listening to his musical voice and felt so connected to that person. The words spoken by that person taught me the way of life. Suddenly that person was out of sight. Searched for that person every where near the place but in vain. The other people there had not even seen that person. I sat there with a gloomy face thinking who the person was and repenting on my foolishness that I didn't even try to know the identity of that person. Suddenly I heard some one calling out my name, was elated thinking that the person was back but it was my mother who was trying to wake me up as I was getting late for work. Never realized when I fell asleep but it was just a dream. Each and every moment of that dream was afresh in my mind, how much I tried but could not forget it. The whole day I could not concentrate on work, but was thinking who the person was who was so kind to me, could not recollect the looks of that person but for the smile. All my efforts to recollect about that person went in vain. When ever I think about that person only his smile resurfaces, just the words and the beautiful smile- the smile that could vanish the sadness of the others. Smile nothing but smile still stays afresh in my memory..
-SNEHA NAIK
One fine night went to sleep at the usual time but could not sleep as it was raining outside and the child in me wanted to play in the rain but could not go out as it was too dark to step out. The empty roads, the drizzle visible because of the light rays of the street light, the gentle breeze and the wet leaves dancing to the tunes of the breeze made a spectacular joyous moment. It filled my heart with happiness. I sat at the window enjoying the scenario, didn’t feel like sleeping as I would miss the beautiful moments with the nature if I slept. Wanted the moment to stay for ever, didn’t want the sun to rise, wanted the dawn to wait till I could enjoy those moments unto satisfaction but as the nature brings this beauty to me even reminds me that the day has to rise and work to begin. Suddenly I felt as if I was sitting on a sea shore, the same drizzle, and the silent tides that brought the sea waters along with them cleansed my feet and returned back to the sea. The feeling of a soft touch by the water brought a smile on my face. Never felt a need for a second person between me and the nature. Nature always has something new to present and that feeling brings joy and happiness. I was sitting there alone at the shore enjoying the beauty. Then I saw a person walking towards me wearing a sweet smile. He spoke to me so gently that the words fell on my ear as music. I sat there listening him speak as his voice was as soothing as that of a koel. We walked along the shore, that person knew so much about me but I knew nothing about that person. I didn’t even bother to know about that person, was walking along with that person listening to his musical voice and felt so connected to that person. The words spoken by that person taught me the way of life. Suddenly that person was out of sight. Searched for that person every where near the place but in vain. The other people there had not even seen that person. I sat there with a gloomy face thinking who the person was and repenting on my foolishness that I didn't even try to know the identity of that person. Suddenly I heard some one calling out my name, was elated thinking that the person was back but it was my mother who was trying to wake me up as I was getting late for work. Never realized when I fell asleep but it was just a dream. Each and every moment of that dream was afresh in my mind, how much I tried but could not forget it. The whole day I could not concentrate on work, but was thinking who the person was who was so kind to me, could not recollect the looks of that person but for the smile. All my efforts to recollect about that person went in vain. When ever I think about that person only his smile resurfaces, just the words and the beautiful smile- the smile that could vanish the sadness of the others. Smile nothing but smile still stays afresh in my memory..
-SNEHA NAIK
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)