क्या जीना इसी का नाम है????

हवा के बदलते रूह के साथ ज़िन्दगी भी अपने रास्तें बदलती है, हर राह नया हर मंजिल नयी और अन्जान/ हर सफ़र में नए लोग मिलें कुछ ज़िन्दगी से जुड़ ते गए और कुछ ऐसा ज़ख्म छोड़ गए की उन्हें भुलाने की हर कोशिश उन ज़ख्मों को गहरा करती गयी............... फिर भी  हर  मोड़ पर अल्विदा कहना इतना मुश्किल हो जाता है की हम उन दुःख देने वालों से बिचादते भी घबराते है, चाहते है कि  उन पलों को कैद कर ले, उन्हें जाने ना दे............


ऐसा क्यों होता है की ज़िन्दगी में कुछ लोगों का साथ पा  कर भी हम उन्से दूर हो जाते है? और उन्हें एहसास भी नहीं होता की वो कितना गहरा ज़ख्म छोड़ जा रहे है................


हर घम  को भुलाना, आगे बढ़ना इतना मुश्किल हो जाता है की उन्से दूर  भागना  भी  नामुम्किन लगने लगता है..............
क्या जीना इसी का नाम है??????


स्नेहा.......

the conversation a clear version for you ppl
X- I don't know what to study for the finals!
Y- Don't exams test what you should have already learned and know?
X- Yes, but I dont really know anything!
Y- Wouldn't studying now be too late......
X- Not if I know what to study!
Y- I give up...........


EXAMS…………….


Exams exams exams…………..huh…. the only thing that matters these days is what we score in the exams, entrances…. How can an entrance of just a few hours decide everything about the knowledge one has gained all through the years???? Is the knowledge gained that is important or the marks one gets in the exams? Marks are not always the replicas of the knowledge one has gained through the year…These thoughts started making rounds in my mind when the exams were continuously being postponed these days the reason well known to everyone. Now when the exams and marks decide the career, how much you study, or the knowledge gained don’t really matter. All that matters is the marks and just the marks.


Next just look at the correction system. The papers in some universities are corrected within a span of 10 days. The results of some 10,000 odd students given in just a span of few days……


Where are we heading to? Is the knowledge gained just for the sake of exams?


The teaching these days is also being influenced by the exam wise important topics. Then what about the subject??? When will one learn the REAL subject other than the ACADEMIC subject important in exam point of view?????


Yes, exams are necessary so that the one not interested in studies learns something for the sake of marks, but deciding the fate of the student on the basis of just those marks?? Exams and results should not be ones that need to matter but finally what matters is how much one has learnt. We the students fall prey to these and now because of the situation prevailing there might be many who dread their future ‘coz the exams are not being conducted………….thanks to this system even I am the prey to all this.


Admission into kinder garten also needs an exam… the child is made to face the fear of exams from the age of 3 itself. When one doesn’t get a proper score what happens to the confidence levels of the child only the child knows. When will others understand exams always don’t judge the caliber of their wards. Thanks to this system the parents start comparing their kids to the one who scores higher than them bringing the confidence levels to some negative points. Thanks to this education system many sorts of depressions have come up into existence. The one who can face it is the winner the one unable to beat the stress levels is subjected all sorts of insults in the society. Why is it that the education only decides everything? Why can’t one plan a career in an off beat field???? How many parents have the courage to encourage their child to choose an off beat field????


Please do think about it once….we as students are facing it now, tomorrow as parents hope we don’t go back to square one………


PC----http://www.cs.cityu.edu.hk/~hwchun/Images/Final%20Exams.png


-SNEHA NAIK

DESTINY.....

I have been wondering whole of my life what is destiny...don’t I plan my destiny? Whenever we face a failure or our thoughts do not become reality for us, people try to calm us down saying “May be this is your Destiny" how true is this? Many of the sleepless nights I have had trying to find answers for my varied innumerable questions this was one of them. Why do we try to escape every time when we have to face a failure? Why doesn’t He give us the courage to face the failure? Why don’t we stand up for our actions? Why is our destiny given the disgrace for bringing a failure in our life? Trying to find solutions for many such questions but I don’t drive to any conclusion.

Destiny, fate are they just for our satisfaction or true facts? Did He write so many stories a different story for every living being? What is destiny- my future? What is my fate- the story of my life? Do the lines of our hands really speak about our future, our destiny?

I started blaming rather satisfying myself thinking this is what destiny is during my intermediate days. I did work hard to fulfill my mother’s dream of seeing me as a doctor. But I guess I fell short of the interest as I never dreamt being a doctor. I took interest in biology during my tenth and hence landed up taking BiPC. Till then I haven’t even chalked out a career for myself but, blamed my destiny for not making me a doctor. Never thought whether I was interested in it or not. Next landed up in OUCW, never had dreamt in my wildest dreams that I would land up in that jungle one day. But that place turned out to be heaven for me. I had the greatest moments of life there but, never ever thought of thanking my destiny for that beautiful life. Then came the next phase of life for my MSc. Was unable to convince my parents for letting me attend an interview for integrated PhD. They convinced me saying that was not my destiny and hence you couldn’t go but the fact that I had failed in my attempts to convince them. Then why blame my destiny? It did give me an opportunity which I couldn’t utilize and started blaming my destiny.

I have learnt to stand up for my mistakes. I no more want to blame my destiny for the situation I am in. I am responsible for all my deeds and I am ready to accept it. Now I am a happier person sensing that it was my fault but, found and easier way of blaming my destiny. Thanks to my friend (aki) for this realization. The regular chats we have had and the depressed soul I was all these days, I am no more of that kind atleast trying to be. Thanks to all my friends who had to bear with my depressing stuff (special thanks to aki and trish)

-SNEHA NAIK

WHAT NEXT????
When the days seem dull, the nights go sleepless, the future uncertain, the situation not in our control and when everything we plan for life goes wrong we are stranded with one and only one question “WHAT NEXT?” I am sure many of us have faced this question and will continue to face this question till our death. The same question but the situation different each time. Do we have any answer for it? Will we ever have any answer for it?
Is this what keeps the life going? When 1 step of life is achieved and even before the success is thoroughly enjoyed the same question raises again “what next???” Is it the reason for our survival, the reason for the increasing demands and the reason for dissatisfaction in career in my case??? Even before I finish one work the mind starts working on the next thing to be done.
May be the desire to do a lot of things in this short span of life gave birth to this question amongst us. May be the desire to be in the top league in this rat race gave birth to it.
Is there any end to this question in our lives? Is death the only answer???.....................


-SNEHA NAIK

जाने कहाँ गए वोह दिन............

ज़िन्दगी भी पता नहीं कैसे मोड़ लेती है, पता ही नहीं चला कब बड़े हो गए और कब वक़्त गुजर गया/ वो वक़्त भी क्या था जब चंदामामा की चांदनी में माँ की हांथों से निवाला खाते थे और अब एक वक़्त ऐसा है जब खाना खाने तक ही फुरसत नहीं मिलती/ अपने बचपन के चंदामामा से मिलना तो जैसे सपना हो गया हो/ पता ही नहीं चला कब ज़िन्दगी के इस भागम भाग में इतना खो गए की अपने ही ज़िन्दगी के छोटी छोटी खुशिया हमसे दूर होने लगे/ सूरज का डूबना और चाँद का उभारना तोह पता ही नहीं चलता और दिन कब रात में बदल गयी यह भी तोह नहीं दीखता/ न सूरज का उभारना जानते है न दिन का ढलना/ ज़िन्दगी के इस हेरा फेरी में कुछ ऐसे खो गए है की ज़िन्दगी के उन हसींन लम्हों को जीना तोह चाहते है पर वक्त नहीं रहता/ ऐसी ज़िन्दगी ही क्या जो हम अपने लिए अपने दिल को खुश करने के लिए वक्त ही न निकाल पाए? एक पूर्णिमा की रात जब घर से बाहर कुछ काम से जाना पडा तब चाँद की चांदनी ने मन को कुछ ऐसे मोह लिया की नज़र हटाये न हट सकी/ उस रात एक अजीब सी खुशी का एहसास किया/ वोह ख़ुशी जो बचपन के हर रात को सुहाना कर देती थी आज बड़े अर्जे के बाद महसूस कर रही थी/ शायद यही ज़िन्दगी का नियम है खुशी तोह देती है पर लम्बे अर्जे के लिए नहीं/  हर पल यह एहसास तोह कराती है की हमारे इस ज़िन्दगी में खुशियाँ तोह है पर उनका आनंद उठाने का वक्त नहीं/ एक पल ज़िन्दगी में ऐसा था जब चाँद की चांदनी और तारों की सुन्दरता सारे दुःख हर लेती थी और सुकून की नींद सुलाती थी और अब एक वक्त ऐसा है जहाँ हर रात बिना नींद के गुज़र जाती है पर अपने उन रात के साथी दुःख हरता की याद ही नहीं आती/ ज़िन्दगी के इस भागम भाग ने हम से सब कुछ चीन लिया हमारे साथी, छोटी छोटी खुशिया पर फिर भी हम कुछ नहीं कर पाते/ क्या यही ज़िन्दगी है? शायद हाँ या शायद ना पर वक्त तोह जुज़र्ता रहता है और ज़िन्दगी भी तेजी से आगे बढती रहती है यह ना सोचते की हम उस रफ़्तार से आगे बढ़ भी रहे है या नहीं? काश वोह बचपन हमे कुछ पल के लिए लौटा दिया जाए ताकि हम इस पल के सारे दुःख उस चंद लम्हों में भूल जाए और फिर इस ज़िन्दगी के हेरा फेरी में लौट आये............काश ऐसा हो पाता/काश.....................


-स्नेहा

LIFE…………
My solitude always questions me about the life I live. The highest form of the animal kingdom possessing the brains but still my solitude never left wondering “is this life really mine……!” The creator The super power plays the game and we the puppets in his hand play according to his moves. “Is this really the life I had wanted for myself?” not very sure if this was what I wanted the constant failures, the regular sidetracks I had to follow was not what I wished for my life. He is the one who decides I guess as even after our struggle we land up doing something else we like it or not thinking He has decided a better thing for us..
Do I take the decisions of my life??? Not really. Then why did He make us the superior with the brains, giving the ability to think and analyze the situation. He decides even the people in our life. Relative come to us by default but friends-do I choose??? People come play their roles in our lives and go and we keep waiting for them. He gave us this life to live but I guess He wants to enjoy a short play of my life for certain duration and then bring to an end…. Am I on this land only to play according to Him??? Am I the only troubled or the extreme thinker or many feeling so? My questions unanswered every time but still my solitude poses a new question each time. Why is it that we come onto this land, live and go? Do we atleast have a moment where we decide something for our life? Atleast one decision of our life is really ours. As elders say its all written we just have to play our part??? Is this true??
Does He enjoy the differences among people? How does He remember the different natures of so many people on the earth? If He has created the land then why is He destroying like this with natural calamities? Does He love all his people equally? Then why are a few troubled with no food to eat and water to drink and a few enjoying all the luxuries of life? Is this what He wants his own creation to face?
My solitude still questions me “is this your life that you are living or just playing your role in the play????”

-SNEHA NAIK

THE PERENNIAL WATER’S…………………
Any river or for that matter any water body that flows without getting dries for ever is called the perennial water source. Tears- being the perennial water source of our lives. Tears share a very special relation with us. The best companion for lives as like other human companions never demand any attention but share all our sorrows, grief’s, happiness, anger and all forms of emotions.
Tears- a silent source of entertainment, the eternal pacifiers of life. They express our feelings more clearly than our words as words can be hidden but one can never hide their tears the more one tries to hide them the more clearly they are visible to everyone. Tears are the feelings, which the words cannot express. The tears flow as the string of pearls and along with flow all our sorrows, helping us to move out of the helpless situations and provide the strength and encouragement to face the ground reality of life. The tears as they flow teach us the lesson that life s not just to sit and cry but also to face the life as it comes. Even when we are happy, they flow off even without our notice. No matter we remember them in our happiness they still relieve us of all the pain.
They possess the magical power to relieve the heart from the sorrow, grief, pain and all other emotions, which no one else can do in our life. They share all our feelings and pacify us by there silent words saying, “no matter what we are there for us to support you in all your Endeavour’s when the whole world might be against you.” Tears mark the sign of birth and death. It’s the crying of the newly born that marks the entry of life in this world and the sorrow of the others in the form of tears that marks the end of one life in the same world. Some people try hard to hide them and do not let them flow. Just let your tears the string of pearls to flow and see the magic they create. They flow off and leave a sense of satisfaction, sense of being, and sense of happiness in life. Did the creator create them only so that they can help his creation the human beings in all situations when no one is there for them rather when they are unable to share their emotions with anyone? Thanks to Him for giving the beautiful companion for our lives with whom one their share their feelings yet they do not demand a share in our happiness and don’t bother if we do not involve the in our happiness…

-SNEHA NAIK